Bad Day Gone Good...

November 1, 2013...I LOVE you soooo much!  I had a really hard day at work today and just felt like the biggest baby and drama queen.  I haven’t cried at work or about work the entire time I’ve been there.  Well…I did today!  I feel like I’ve been so behind in everything.  I can’t get ahead and I am being interrupted time and time again.  I’m so tired of not feeling like I can get my stuff done without getting more assignments.  Usually I can handle things, but I just couldn’t today.  I had some things stolen from my desk and I just feel like I am being taken advantage of right now.  I know how to say no outside of work, but I don’t know how to tell people at work that my load is too much and I don’t feel like I can say no to some of the things I’m given.  I went into Traci’s office and just broke down in tears.  It’s the first time in 3 years at this job that I’ve cried because of my workload.  I miss Rob being here.  He made everything ok and was just a great boss.  Dallas is amazing and really a great guy, I just miss having Rob as my boss!  I tried to control myself, but I broke down about 4 times today.  I text you while I was crying, just to share with you my feelings and emotions, but I told you there was nothing you could do.  You called me several times and left the sweetest messages on my phone.  I finally left work around 3:00pm and brought everything home with me.  I was a mess!  I was supposed to go play soccer tonight and then go to Mel’s birthday dinner after that.  I decided I couldn’t handle that, and I didn’t want to show up crying and be a grouch and ruin Mel’s night, so I canceled!  I just have been working all night trying to get a little caught up so that I am not so overwhelmed at work.  I talked to you several times throughout the night and you were just so wonderful and comforting!   I told you several times how much I just love and appreciate you being so good with me.  You called me one time and I was asking you what you were doing.  You said that you were finally finishing up your errands for the night and was about to head home, but you asked me to come check my door!  There you were with a big grin on your face with beautiful purple daisy flowers in hand!  You were ADORABLE!!!  I wanted to cry, but I was smiling so much that I couldn’t.  You just held me and kissed me and told me that you wanted to make me smile and help make my day better!  You gave me my purple flowers and just hugged me and gave me a kiss.  I was grinning from ear to ear!  I couldn’t tell you how happy I was!  Then you told me that when you were buying my flowers the cute two older ladies asked who the flowers were for.  You said they were for your fiancé, and that I had a rough day at work, and that you  needed to make me happy.  They just thought that was so sweet!  When you told me that, I was just so excited that you referred to me as your fiancé!  Soooo cute!  You hugged and kissed me and then told me to stay right there.  You reached round the outside of the door and grabbed 4 fruit leathers for me.  You told me that they have no added sugar, so I would be able to eat them with my cleanse I am doing.  You handed them to me and told me to stay there.  You went around the corner and grabbed a bag of dates that also had no added sugar and told me that I could have those as well.  You hugged me and kissed me and then told me to stay there.  You then reached around the corner again and grabbed a set of very nice headphones that you bought me.  You told me that it is a proven statistic that when you are at work and you have headphones on, people won’t interrupt you.  You told me that when I am at work and I need to get some things done, I can put these on to drown out the noise and then people won’t bother me as much!  You told me you had been looking for these specific headphones for months now and you actually just found them on sale at the last store you looked at tonight.  You then gave them to me and told me to stay there.  You had something else for me that you bought for me a long time ago (last spring) and was waiting for the perfect time to give them to me.  You went around the corner one last time and came back with these handcrafted Sorel natural rubber books with leather around them and fur at the top.  They are sooooo adorable and sooo comfortable.  You told me you bought them for me on sale last winterish and was thinking about giving them to me for Christmas, but thought today was the best day.  You thought it would be a good idea for me to have them to wear when it starts to snow and that they will be comfortable, cute and stylish for me.  You said that you thought I could also wear them when my feet are cold inside.  You was so excited to give them to me.  You had me try them on right there in the entry way of my town home.  It was the cutest thing.  You even turned the light on so that you could show me the purple lining that was on the boots, because you know how much I love purple.  You were just so happy to make me happy!  You spent all your time after work trying to find things that would make my day better.  You told me tonight on the phone that I do so much for so many people when they are down and having a hard time.  You said it is your job to make me happy when I am feeling down.  I just feel so grateful and so lucky to have you in my life.  You left and I couldn’t stop smiling.  You didn’t come up and spend time with me.  You knew I had a lot of work to do and that I was clocked in.  You had me put on my boots and then you put everything else you gave me in the box (besides the flowers), handed the box to me, gave me a kiss and told me to get back to work and good luck!  You said goodbye, let yourself out the door and I just sat there wanting you to come back!  I love how wonderful you are with me and to me.  I don’t know how I got so lucky to have you in my life, but I can’t imagine my life without you.  I literally smiled the rest of the night because I was soooo happy to have you in my life.  You have told me time and time again that you will do whatever it takes to make sure I am taken care of and happy for the rest of my life.  You said that you would prove that to me every day.  You really do prove that to me.  I just LOVE you so much!!!